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A friend is a person to laugh and cry with, An inspiration, Someone who lends a helping hand, A friend is not a shadow nor a servant But someone who hold a piece of a person in there heart. Someone who shares a smile, Someone who brightens up your day What makes a person a friend? Is by saying your Love will stay.4th Feb.2008.610am.~Mika~
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About me:
~I'm a female if you haven't figured that out...♀♀
~Birthday 20th Aug.1988
~Strait talker, I don't bullshit around.
~I love life, but not my own.
~Life is to long...at least mine
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"Circle Of Eternal Becoming" Primordial spells have been written on water's surface. The abyss silver heart conceals the eternal prayer. Fire and wind contain the timeless secrets of the knowledge. Ancestral spirits of the elemental space materialize their ethereal shape. Dryads, Naiads, Devas, Oreads. I trust the practice and theory of what is agreed to call magic. I believe in the spirits' evocation, in the power to create magic illusions, in the visions of truth in the depth of mind. I believe mind's boundaries shift continually and different minds can flow together, one into the other, and create or reveal a unique energy and individual memories are part of a great collective memory, the memory of Nature itself. Perpetual movement eternal rotation, oscillation of the night sky. Oh silence devour the eternity of Time. As above, so below. My end is my beginning.
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I feel like a sex toy. That is all I ever really was.Held down and played with. No feelings or emotions. Just a hollow body. A child's mind. And my heart wrenching screams. That tore me apart. No one ever heard me. Or so it seems. Used and tossed to the side. Always trying to run and hide.Scared and terified. My soul forever taken by one too many people.Who took me forsaken. I will never be the normal. I'm torn to little pieces pieces of me gone...Lost. My mind is like a whirlwind, ever really slowing down. My heart is frozen from the hate. I need this all to end before it's all too late. These memories attacking me, driving me insane. I just want this all to make sense. This little girl, Used and abused, simply tossed away. I was doomed from the start. I never knew what love was and now my sick and twisted perception maybe holding me back from all that I love. Worthless, Useless, Merely a toy. Just some guy's fun. Is all I ever was. My voice gone, I could never speak this pain is restless. It hasn't stopped in years...No one understands how dark my world is. How I cannot escape my worst nightmares, my dreams have always been crushed. I wish I could slit my wrists and watch the blood rush. I can't give up, I need to fight no matter how much my body is shaken in fright...Just a sex toy, just a little girl, my innocence stolen my memories never forgotten. 14 years later...It's all attacking me. Forced to be toyed with...So easily destroyed. Scared to speak, Paralyzed in fear, Afraid to acknowledge all I know to be real. Running away from all that I'm afraid of'...LIFE......I can't go on...556am 5th Mar.2008~Mika~
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"Silence is medication for sorrow" I must leave this world now.....A.A.G.L.H.

"Remember me and smile, for it's better to forget than remember me and cry." 22nd Nov.2005 / A.A.G.L.H.